tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61533296818535183542024-03-13T08:05:05.285-04:00Flabbergasted Mom -- "What do you mean I'm bipolar?"A blog by and about a bipolar, ADHD Mom with anxiety, PTSD, depression, panic and agoraphobia (Flabbergasted Mom) & her spouse (Man of the House) with depression and possible ADD.<hr><br>I wish my life was as peaceful as this picture I took LOOKS!<br>@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.comBlogger210125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-83413314944922028922014-11-27T14:22:00.000-05:002014-11-27T14:23:02.692-05:00I am still aliveGained a lot of weight since I started the Lyrica... Psych wants to try adding a stimulant. He says it could send me into hypomania but if it does, I should stop taking it.
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<br>I can't remember the name though.
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<br>I want it to help me do the things my lack of energy and my feelings of shame stop me from.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-51760834026103190652014-11-23T16:28:00.001-05:002014-11-23T16:28:19.409-05:00<table style="margin: 12px auto 0pt; background: rgb(255, 255, 255) none repeat scroll 0%; font-size: 13px; font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; direction: ltr; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="467"> <tbody><tr> <td><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-i0FoKRTML8w/VHJRc7Xf1KI/AAAAAAAAAko/CSEk6x6hsI4/s1600/a0-799410.gif"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-i0FoKRTML8w/VHJRc7Xf1KI/AAAAAAAAAko/CSEk6x6hsI4/s320/a0-799410.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015603945395362" /></a></td> <td><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-dA6Uzpljqlo/VHJRdbswUgI/AAAAAAAAAk0/AYaaVdBHZ2U/s1600/a1-701582.gif"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-dA6Uzpljqlo/VHJRdbswUgI/AAAAAAAAAk0/AYaaVdBHZ2U/s320/a1-701582.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015612624491010" /></a></td> <td><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-md3L55q76jY/VHJRd1h-1sI/AAAAAAAAAlA/K7mRlK457Ik/s1600/a2-703775.gif"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-md3L55q76jY/VHJRd1h-1sI/AAAAAAAAAlA/K7mRlK457Ik/s320/a2-703775.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015619558627010" /></a></td> <td><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-4rt3laYz2OA/VHJRescAJoI/AAAAAAAAAlM/Ea0Coz0eEfU/s1600/a3-706047.gif"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-4rt3laYz2OA/VHJRescAJoI/AAAAAAAAAlM/Ea0Coz0eEfU/s320/a3-706047.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015634297497218" /></a></td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-4kfzlGCaZq4/VHJRewRPZPI/AAAAAAAAAlY/LK36_m2FrmE/s1600/b0-707596.gif"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-4kfzlGCaZq4/VHJRewRPZPI/AAAAAAAAAlY/LK36_m2FrmE/s320/b0-707596.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015635326100722" /></a></td> <td><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-o2z_vxugtaY/VHJRfX9C7fI/AAAAAAAAAlk/qn5QY42u4Vo/s1600/b1-709649.gif"><img src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-o2z_vxugtaY/VHJRfX9C7fI/AAAAAAAAAlk/qn5QY42u4Vo/s320/b1-709649.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015645978815986" /></a></td> <td> <!-- Header starts here --> <div style="margin: 12px 24px 0pt 0pt; padding: 0pt; font-size: 130%; font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 102); text-align: right;">This message is brought to you by</div> <div style="margin: 0pt 24px 24px 0pt; padding: 0pt; font-size: 180%; font-weight: bold; text-align: right; color: rgb(1, 47, 95);"><a href="http://www.rogers.com">Rogers <span style="color: rgb(212, 0, 0);"></a></span></div> <!-- Header ends here --> </td> <td><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ZJ0xQhah-dk/VHJRgFKWCoI/AAAAAAAAAlw/vFHGOtgxHz4/s1600/b3-712143.gif"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ZJ0xQhah-dk/VHJRgFKWCoI/AAAAAAAAAlw/vFHGOtgxHz4/s320/b3-712143.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015658114189954" /></a></td> </tr> <tr style="vertical-align: top;"> <td><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-BqY8h2hZXqU/VHJRgrvjJQI/AAAAAAAAAl8/mCoLIp2U9HM/s1600/c0-714093.gif"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-BqY8h2hZXqU/VHJRgrvjJQI/AAAAAAAAAl8/mCoLIp2U9HM/s320/c0-714093.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015668470785282" /></a></td> <td colspan="2" align="center"> <!-- Content starts here --> <table border=0><TR><TD width=350 colSpan=4><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Frp7in_5d-E/VHJRhBCMw0I/AAAAAAAAAmI/XBuF4W2rYjk/s1600/dottedline350-715995.gif"><img src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Frp7in_5d-E/VHJRhBCMw0I/AAAAAAAAAmI/XBuF4W2rYjk/s320/dottedline350-715995.gif" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6085015674186154818" /></a></TD></TR><tr><tr><td colspan=1 align="Center">My temper is flaring today. 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<br>And then, do you ever think of going past with a big knife like the nun in Exorcist 3, just to freak them out??
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<br>Perhaps it's only me.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-68282299656836580322014-07-21T17:43:00.001-04:002014-07-21T17:43:41.583-04:00MoodyI don't really have anything to say other than H dragging me out for some garage sale perusing.
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<br>I feel crappy and Hubs is gone till tmw.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-27014630260586134662014-07-16T08:51:00.001-04:002014-07-16T08:51:42.565-04:00Haven't been writingI am very bored and boring so I haven't been writing.
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<br>It's been a busy wk so I am exhausted!!!
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<br>I'm moody and semi-down most days but I slap on a happy face the best I can because Hubs is down too.
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<br>Had Son's bday, went to the beach and saw an old friend.
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<br>All good things but I feel like I have no energy left.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-80832741682802180732014-07-06T23:24:00.001-04:002014-07-06T23:24:38.828-04:00TiredI have been up and down this wk. Got my period - first one since May.
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<br>Haven't been taking many actual photos or working on genealogy either.
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<br>Went out yesterday w/ a good friend - met up w/ some other friends & I was even convinced to stay out even later and some of it was good and some wasn't as much.
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<br>Overall, I feel sort of strange it's like while I am texting this - it's one of those out-of-body experiences where I am seeing myself from above.
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<br>I feel so disconnected...
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-62282685216475536762014-07-03T18:59:00.001-04:002014-07-03T18:59:47.578-04:00Hmmn...Had ODSP meeting today - came home and slept for HOURS - my case worker was nice and explained things thoroughly though I can't say I retained much of it.
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<br>Thank God there were handouts!
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<br>Awoke feeling moody.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-1106140033154728462014-07-02T19:25:00.001-04:002014-07-02T19:25:16.873-04:00*sigh* Hubs 2.0 is depressedThis is so hard to deal w/ because it pulls me down too. It's so easy to be sucked into the whirlpool.
<br>I am swimming against the current but I don't want to drown!
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<br>I *know* I should be more supportive and I tend to think I am until I end up losing my shit w/ him.
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<br>Go to a DR, a counselling place - just do SOMETHING!!!!
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<br>I've been asking for MONTHS!
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-67601906019960647842014-06-28T22:39:00.001-04:002014-06-28T22:39:41.581-04:00AngryI've been kind of angry today.
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<br>Everything is like striking a match to a wick.
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<br>I hate this.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-25157341932109047052014-06-25T23:23:00.001-04:002014-06-25T23:23:50.083-04:00FuckSo there is this thing called a disability tax credit aka the T-2201.
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<br>You need a medical dr or psychologist to fill it out and without one, in Ontario, you can NOT set up an RDSP for yourself.
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<br>I don't have either.
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<br>My psychiatrist did my cpp-d application and my odsp application.
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<br>So I need some else to do the last thing.
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<br>According to CIBC - Ontario is the only province that does it that way.
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<br>Grr Arrgh!
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<br>I say this time and time again - why is it that ppl with mental health issues need to jump through hoops when we have a lessened capacity/tolerance for it all?!?!???
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-5232077011581937332014-06-22T08:28:00.002-04:002014-06-22T08:29:17.519-04:00Contemplating my pillsClonazepam 0.5 mg - 6x per day = 3 mg<br />
Lamictal 100 mg - 5x per day = 500 mg<br />
Teva-Propranlol 10 mg - 2x per day = 20 mg<br />
Abilify 30 mg - 1x per day = 30 mg<br />
Synthroid 25 mcg - 2x per day = 50 mcg<br />
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MCG is micrograms so that amount won't even help with weight loss :( damn it!<br />
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But my question is - is that a LOT of medication to be on or not?<br />
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Next appt I am going to ask if the Clonazepam was actually "as needed" with the max being "as prescribed" because I think he said that to me but I can't recall.<br />
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fr: <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/mental-health/bipolar-disorder-clonazepam-to-treat-mania">http://www.webmd.boots.com/mental-health/bipolar-disorder-clonazepam-to-treat-mania</a><br />
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<h3>
Does it work?</h3>
Probably. If you have bipolar disorder, taking clonazepam
can help calm down some of your symptoms if you are having a bout of
mania. But it can have side effects, especially if you take it for more
than four weeks.<br />
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What is it?</h3>
Clonazepam [snip] can also be used to treat <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/anxiety-panic/default.htm" title="link">anxiety</a> and mania.<br />
Clonazepam
can be addictive if you take it for too long. But it starts to work
quickly.<br />
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How does it work?</h3>
Benzodiazepine drugs such as clonazepam dampen down activity in your <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/a-to-z-guides/picture-of-the-brain" title="link">brain</a>. This means they have a calming effect. They help you feel less <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/anxiety-panic/guide/understanding-generalised-anxiety-disorder-symptoms" title="link">anxious</a> and help you get to <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/sleep-disorders/default.htm" title="link">sleep</a>.<br />
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Can it be harmful?</h3>
Yes. These are some of side effects you are most likely to get.<sup> <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/mental-health/bipolar-disorder-bipolar-disorder-references#25495" title="link">[78]</a></sup><br />
<ul>
<li>Feeling sleepy. This is the most common side effect of benzodiazepines. You shouldn't drive or operate machinery while taking clonazepam.</li>
<li>Having problems with your memory. Benzodiazepines can make it hard for you to remember things.</li>
<li>Having dizzy spells.</li>
</ul>
Doctors
won't give you benzodiazepine drugs such as clonazepam for more than a
few weeks. This is because you can become dependent on them. When you
become dependent on a drug, you feel a strong need to keep taking it.
And you can't stop taking it without getting <a href="http://www.webmd.boots.com/mental-health/bipolar-disorder-clonazepam-to-treat-mania?page=2#4972">withdrawal symptoms</a>.
For example, you may feel very upset or irritated, be unable to sleep,
and lose your appetite. So doctors don't usually give people
benzodiazepine drugs for longer than a few weeks.<br />
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fr: http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-7217-LAMOTRIGINE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=8486&drugname=Lamictal+Oral&source=0<br />
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<b>Lamictal oral Warnings</b><br />
<div id="handOutWarning">
Rarely, serious (sometimes fatal) <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/picture-of-the-skin">skin</a> <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/tc/rash-age-12-and-older-topic-overview">rashes</a> have occurred while taking this <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/index-drugs.aspx">medication</a>.
These rashes are more common in children under 16 than in adults.
Rashes may be more likely if you start at too high a dose, if you
increase your dose too quickly, or if you take this medication with
certain other anti-<a href="http://www.webmd.com/epilepsy/understanding-seizures-basics">seizure</a> medications (<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-8885-valproic+acid+oral.aspx">valproic acid</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-8019-DIVALPROEX+SODIUM+ENTERIC-COATED+TABLET+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=6000&drugname=divalproex+oral">divalproex</a>). These rashes may occur anytime during use, but most serious rashes have occurred within 2 to 8 weeks of starting <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-7217-LAMOTRIGINE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=4582&drugname=lamotrigine+oral">lamotrigine</a>.</div>
Get
medical help right away if you develop any type of skin rash while
taking this medication, or if you have other signs of a serious <a href="http://www.webmd.com/allergies/guide/allergic-reaction-causes">allergic reaction</a> such as <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/guide/skin-conditions-hives-urticaria-angioedema">hives</a>, fever, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/swollen-lymph-nodes-topic-overview">swollen lymph glands</a>, painful sores in the mouth or around the <a href="http://www.webmd.com/eye-health/picture-of-the-eyes">eyes</a>, or swelling of the lips or <a href="http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/picture-of-the-tongue">tongue</a>.
Your doctor will tell you if you should stop taking lamotrigine. Even
after you stop taking this medication, it is still possible for the rash
to become life-threatening or cause permanent scars or other problems.<br />
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Lamotrigine is used alone or with other medications to prevent and
control seizures. It may also be used to help prevent the extreme mood
swings of <a href="http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/default.htm">bipolar</a> disorder in adults.<br />
Lamotrigine
is known as an anticonvulsant or antiepileptic drug. It is thought to
work by restoring the balance of certain natural substances in the <a href="http://www.webmd.com/brain/picture-of-the-brain">brain</a>.<br />
<b>How to use Lamictal oral</b>
Read the Medication Guide and, if available, the Patient Information
Leaflet provided by your pharmacist before you start taking lamotrigine
and each time you get a refill. If you have any questions, ask your
doctor or pharmacist.<br />
Take this medication by mouth with or
without food as directed by your doctor. Swallow the tablets whole since
chewing them may leave a bitter taste.<br />
Dosage is based on your medical condition, response to treatment, and use of certain interacting drugs. (See also <a href="http://www.webmd.com/fda/avoiding-drug-interactions">Drug Interactions</a> section.) For children, the dosage is also based on <a href="http://www.webmd.com/diet/tc/healthy-weight-what-is-a-healthy-weight">weight</a>.<br />
It
is very important to follow your doctor's dosing instructions exactly.
The dose must be increased slowly. It may take several weeks or months
to reach the best dose for you and to get the full benefit from this
medication. Take this medication regularly in order to get the most
benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same time(s) each
day.<br />
Do not stop taking this medication without consulting your
doctor. Some conditions may become worse when the drug is suddenly
stopped. Your dose may need to be gradually decreased. Also, if you have
stopped taking this medication, do not restart lamotrigine without
consulting your doctor.<br />
Tell your doctor if your condition does not improve or if it worsens.<br />
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<div class="question">
Lamictal oral is used to treat the following:</div>
<div class="answer">
Bipolar
Disorder in Remission, Epilepsy of the Lennox Gastaut Syndrome, Simple
Partial Seizures, Convulsive Seizures, Epileptic Seizure, Fit</div>
<div class="question">
Lamictal oral may also be used to treat:</div>
<div class="answer">
Bipolar Depression, Rapid Cycle Manic-Depression, Neuropathic Pain</div>
<div class="answer">
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<div class="answer">
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Before using this medication, tell your doctor or pharmacist your medical history, especially of: <a href="http://www.webmd.com/urinary-incontinence-oab/picture-of-the-kidneys">kidney</a> disease, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/picture-of-the-liver">liver</a> disease.<br />
This drug may make you dizzy or drowsy or cause blurred <a href="http://www.webmd.com/eye-health/default.htm">vision</a>.
Do not drive, use machinery, or do any activity that requires alertness
or clear vision until you are sure you can perform such activities
safely. Limit <a href="http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/tc/Alcohol-Abuse-and-Dependence-Topic-Overview">alcoholic</a> beverages.<br />
Before
having surgery, tell your doctor or dentist about all the products you
use (including prescription drugs, nonprescription drugs, and herbal
products).<br />
Older adults may be more sensitive to the side effects of this drug, especially <a href="http://www.webmd.com/first-aid/understanding-dizziness-basics">dizziness</a>, loss of coordination, or fainting. These side effects can increase the risk of falling.<br />
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<br />
Drug interactions may change how your medications work or increase
your risk for serious side effects. This document does not contain all
possible drug interactions. Keep a list of all the products you use
(including prescription/nonprescription drugs and herbal products) and
share it with your doctor and pharmacist. Do not start, stop, or change
the dosage of any medicines without your doctor's approval.<br />
Other
medications can affect the removal of lamotrigine from your body, which
may affect how lamotrigine works. Examples include hormonal birth
control (such as pills, patches), <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-6028-esterified+estrogens+oral.aspx">estrogens</a>, other medications to treat seizures (such as <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-5-CARBAMAZEPINE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=1493&drugname=Carbamazepine+Oral">carbamazepine</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-8689-phenobarbital+oral.aspx">phenobarbital</a>, phenytoin, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-8696-primidone+oral.aspx">primidone</a>, valproic acid), and <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-1744-rifampin+oral.aspx">rifampin</a>, among others. Your doctor may need to adjust your dose of lamotrigine if you are on these medications.<br />
This
medication may decrease the effectiveness of hormonal birth control
products (such as pills, patch, ring). This effect can result in
pregnancy. Ask your doctor or pharmacist for details. Discuss whether
you should use additional reliable <a href="http://www.webmd.com/sex/birth-control/birth-control-birth-control-methods">birth control methods</a>
while using this medication. Also tell your doctor if you have any new
spotting or breakthrough bleeding, because these may be signs that your
birth control is not working well.<br />
Tell your doctor or pharmacist if you are taking other products that cause drowsiness including alcohol, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/allergies/guide/antihistamines-for-allergies">antihistamines</a> (such as <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-5204-CETIRIZINE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=12065&drugname=Cetirizine+Oral">cetirizine</a>, diphenhydramine), drugs for <a href="http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/default.htm">sleep</a> or anxiety (such as alprazolam, diazepam, zolpidem), muscle relaxants, and narcotic pain relievers (such as codeine).<br />
Check
the labels on all your medicines (such as allergy or cough-and-cold
products) because they may contain ingredients that cause drowsiness.
Ask your pharmacist about using those products safely.<br />
<br />
<b>NOTES:</b><br />
Do not share this medication with others.<br />
Laboratory
and/or medical tests (such as liver and kidney function tests, complete
blood count) may be performed periodically to monitor your progress or
check for side effects. Consult your doctor for more details.<br />
There
are different types of this medication available. Some do not have the
same effects. There are also some medications that sound the same as
this product. Make sure you have the right product before taking it.<br />
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<h2>
How does Teva-Propranolol work? What will it do for me?</h2>
Propranolol belongs to the class of medications called <i>beta-blockers</i>. It is used to <b>treat high blood pressure</b>.
It is also used to prevent angina (chest pain), to reduce the risk of
more heart problems after a heart attack (myocardial infarction), to
manage certain heart conditions, and to treat certain types of abnormal
heart rhythms. Propranolol works by relaxing blood vessels and reducing
the demands on the heart.<br />
Propranolol is also used for the prevention of migraines and the treatment of essential tremor.<br />
<b>Your doctor may have suggested this medication for conditions other than those listed in these drug information articles.</b>
As well, some forms of this medication may not be used for all of the
conditions discussed here. If you have not discussed this with your
doctor or are not sure why you are taking this medication, speak to your
doctor. <b>Do not stop taking this medication without consulting your doctor.</b><br />
<b>Do not give this medication to anyone else, even if they have the same symptoms as you do.</b> It can be harmful for people to take this medication if their doctor has not prescribed it.<br />
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<h2>
How should I use Teva-Propranolol?</h2>
<b>The
recommended adult dose of propranolol varies widely according to the
condition being treated and circumstances of the person taking the
medication.</b> Propranolol may be taken with or without food. Do not
stop taking this medication suddenly unless you have talked with your
doctor first.<br />
Many things can affect the dose of medication that a person needs,
such as body weight, other medical conditions, and other medications. <b>If your doctor has recommended a dose different from the ones given here,</b>do not change the way that you are taking the medication without consulting your doctor.<br />
It is important to take this medication exactly as prescribed by your
doctor. If you miss a dose, take it as soon as possible and continue
with your regular schedule. If it is almost time for your next dose,
skip the missed dose and continue with your regular dosing schedule. <b>Do not take a double dose to make up for a missed one.</b> If you are not sure what to do after missing a dose, contact your doctor or pharmacist for advice.<br />
<b>This medication is available under multiple brand names and/or in several different forms.</b>
Any specific brand name of this medication may not be available in all
of the forms listed here. The forms available for the specific brand you
have searched are listed under "What form(s) does this medication come
in?"<br />
Do not dispose of medications in wastewater (e.g. down the sink or in
the toilet) or in household garbage. Ask your pharmacist how to dispose
of medications that are no longer needed or have expired.<br />
<h2>
Who should NOT take Teva-Propranolol?</h2>
<b>Propranolol should not be taken by anyone who:</b>
<br />
<ul>
<li>is allergic to propranolol or to any of the ingredients of the medication</li>
<li>is in cardiogenic shock</li>
<li>has a severely slow heart rate</li>
<li>has allergic rhinitis during the pollen season</li>
<li>has asthma or severe chronic obstructive respiratory diseases (e.g., emphysema, chronic bronchitis)</li>
<li>has overt heart failure</li>
<li>has right ventricular failure secondary to pulmonary hypertension (excessive blood pressure in the lungs)</li>
<li>has serious heart block (second- and third-degree AV block)</li>
<li>has severe circulatory disorders<h2>
What side effects are possible with Teva-Propranolol?</h2>
<b>Many medications can cause side effects.</b>
A side effect is an unwanted response to a medication when it is taken
in normal doses. Side effects can be mild or severe, temporary or
permanent. The side effects listed below are not experienced by everyone
who takes this medication. <b>If you are concerned about side effects, discuss the risks and benefits of this medication with your doctor.</b>
<br />
The following side effects have been reported by at least 1% of
people taking this medication. Many of these side effects can be
managed, and some may go away on their own over time.<br />
<b>Contact your doctor if you experience these side effects and they
are severe or bothersome. Your pharmacist may be able to advise you on
managing side effects.</b><br />
</li>
<li>dizziness or lightheadedness</li>
<li>drowsiness (slight)</li>
<li>hives</li>
<li>itching of skin</li>
<li>skin rash</li>
<li>unusual tiredness or weakness</li>
</ul>
<b>Although most of these side effects listed below don't happen very
often, they could lead to serious problems if you do not check with
your doctor or seek medical attention.</b><br />
<b>Check with your doctor as soon as possible if any of the following side effects occur:</b><br />
<ul>
<li>back or joint pain</li>
<li>breathing difficulty or wheezing</li>
<li>chest pain</li>
<li>cold hands and feet</li>
<li>confusion</li>
<li>depression</li>
<li>dizziness upon arising (orthostatic hypotension)</li>
<li>fever and sore throat</li>
<li>hallucinations</li>
<li>irregular heartbeat</li>
<li>red, scaling, or crusted skin</li>
<li>shortness of breath</li>
<li>slow heartbeat (especially less than 50 beats per minute)</li>
<li>skin rash</li>
<li>swelling of ankles, feet, or lower legs</li>
<li>unusual bleeding or bruising</li>
</ul>
<b>Some people may experience side effects other than those listed.</b> Check with your doctor if you notice any symptom that worries you while you are taking this medication.<br />
<br />
<br />
<h2>
What other drugs could interact with Teva-Propranolol?</h2>
<b>There may be an interaction between propranolol and any of the following:</b><br />
<table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width: 100%px;"><tbody>
<tr><td valign="top" width="50%"><ul>
<li>amiodarone</li>
<li>antiarrhythmic medications</li>
<li>antidiabetes medications (e.g., insulin)</li>
<li>asthma medications (e.g., salbutamol, salmeterol)</li>
<li>calcium channel blockers (e.g., nifedipine, verapamil)</li>
<li>chlorpromazine</li>
<li>cimetidine</li>
<li>clonidine</li>
<li>digoxin</li>
<li>diltiazem</li>
<li>disopyramide</li>
<li>dong quai</li>
<li>epinephrine</li>
<li>ergot alkaloids (e.g., dihydroergotamine, methysergide)</li>
<li>fentanyl</li>
<li>haloperidol</li>
<li>hydralazine</li>
</ul>
</td>
<td valign="top" width="50%"><ul>
<li>lidocaine</li>
<li>medications that reduce blood pressure</li>
<li>mefloquine</li>
<li>methimazole</li>
<li>methyldopa</li>
<li>nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs; e.g., ibuprofen, naproxen)</li>
<li>prazosin</li>
<li>propafenone</li>
<li>quinidine</li>
<li>ranitidine</li>
<li>selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors(SSRIs; e.g., citalopram, fluoxetine, fluvoxamine paroxetine, sertraline)</li>
<li>St. John's wort</li>
<li>theophyllines (e.g., theophylline, aminophylline, oxtriphylline)</li>
<li>thioridazine</li>
<li>verapamil</li>
<li>warfarin</li>
</ul>
</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
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<br />
There may be a slightly increased risk of serious, possibly fatal side effects (such as <a href="http://www.webmd.com/stroke/default.htm">stroke</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/heart/picture-of-the-heart">heart</a> failure, fast/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/guide/what-causes-heart-palpitations">irregular heartbeat</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/lung/tc/pneumonia-topic-overview">pneumonia</a>) when this <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/index-drugs.aspx">medication</a> is used by older adults with <a href="http://www.webmd.com/alzheimers/guide/alzheimers-dementia">dementia</a>.
This medication is not approved for the treatment of dementia-related
behavior problems. Discuss the risks and benefits of this medication, as
well as other effective and possibly safer treatments for
dementia-related behavior problems, with the doctor.<br />
<br />
Aripiprazole is used to treat certain mental/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/mood-disorders">mood disorders</a> (such as <a href="http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/default.htm">bipolar</a> disorder, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/schizophrenia/default.htm">schizophrenia</a>,
and irritability associated with autistic disorder). It may also be
used in combination with other medication to treat depression.
Aripiprazole is known as an antipsychotic drug (atypical type). It works
by helping to restore the balance of certain natural chemicals in the <a href="http://www.webmd.com/brain/picture-of-the-brain">brain</a> (neurotransmitters).<br />
This
medication <b>can decrease hallucinations and improve your concentration</b>. <b>
It helps you to think more clearly and positively about yourself, feel
less nervous, and take a more active part in everyday life.</b> <b>Aripiprazole
can treat severe mood swings and decrease how often mood swings occur</b>.<br />
<br />
Side effects:<br />
<br />
Dizziness, lightheadedness, drowsiness, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-diseases-nausea-vomiting">nausea</a>, vomiting, tiredness, excess <a href="http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/what-is-saliva">saliva</a>/drooling, blurred <a href="http://www.webmd.com/eye-health/default.htm">vision</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/diet/tc/healthy-weight-what-is-a-healthy-weight">weight</a> gain, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-diseases-constipation">constipation</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/migraines-headaches/default.htm">headache</a>, and <a href="http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/default.htm">trouble sleeping</a> may occur. If any of these effects persist or worsen, tell your doctor or pharmacist promptly.<br />
To reduce the risk of <a href="http://www.webmd.com/brain/tc/dizziness-lightheadedness-and-vertigo-topic-overview">dizziness</a> and lightheadedness, get up slowly when rising from a sitting or lying position.<br />
Remember
that your doctor has prescribed this medication because he or she has
judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects.
Many people using this medication do not have serious side effects.<br />
Tell your doctor right away if you have any serious side effects, including: <a href="http://www.webmd.com/brain/understanding-fainting-basics">fainting</a>, mental/mood changes (such as increased <a href="http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/default.htm">anxiety</a>, depression, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/tc/suicidal-thoughts-or-threats-topic-overview">suicidal</a> thoughts), trouble swallowing, restlessness (especially in the legs), shaking (tremor), <a href="http://www.webmd.com/pain-management/muscle-spasms-cramps-charley-horse">muscle spasm</a>, mask-like expression of the face, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/epilepsy/understanding-seizures-basics">seizures</a>, signs of infection (such as fever, persistent <a href="http://www.webmd.com/cold-and-flu/tc/sore-throat-topic-overview">sore throat</a>).<br />
<br />
This drug may make you dizzy or drowsy or cause blurred vision. Do
not drive, use machinery, or do any activity that requires alertness or
clear vision until you are sure you can perform such activities safely.
Avoid <a href="http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/tc/Alcohol-Abuse-and-Dependence-Topic-Overview">alcoholic</a> beverages.<br />
This medication can make you more likely to get <a href="http://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/heat-stroke-symptoms-and-treatment">heat stroke</a>,
a very serious condition. Avoid activities that might cause you to
overheat (such as doing strenuous work/exercise in hot weather, using
hot tubs). When the weather is hot, drink plenty of fluids and dress
lightly. If you become overheated, promptly seek cooler shelter and stop
exercising.<br />
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<div class="question">
Synthroid oral is used to treat the following:</div>
<div class="answer">
Additional Treatment for Thyroid Cancer, Enlarged Thyroid Gland, <b>Underactive Thyroid</b>, A Progressive Disease of the Thyroid Gland</div>
<div class="answer">
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<div id="drugsPronName">
<span class="brandNameTitle">Common Brand Name(s): </span><a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-1812-levothroid+oral.aspx">Levothroid</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-6137-levoxyl+oral.aspx">Levoxyl</a>, Synthroid, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-20115-unithroid+oral.aspx">Unithroid</a><br />
<br />
This <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/index-drugs.aspx">medication</a> should not be used for <a href="http://www.webmd.com/diet/tc/healthy-weight-what-is-a-healthy-weight">weight</a> loss. Normal doses of this medication will not work for <a href="http://www.webmd.com/diet/default.htm">weight loss</a>, and large doses of this medication may cause serious, possibly fatal side effects, especially when taken with diet pills.<br />
<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-4054-levothyroxine+inj.aspx">Levothyroxine</a> is used to treat an underactive <a href="http://www.webmd.com/women/picture-of-the-thyroid">thyroid</a> (<a href="http://www.webmd.com/women/hypothyroidism-underactive-thyroid-symptoms-causes-treatments">hypothyroidism</a>).
It replaces or provides more thyroid hormone, which is normally
produced by the thyroid gland. Low thyroid hormone levels can occur
naturally or when the thyroid gland is injured by radiation/medications
or removed by surgery. Having enough thyroid hormone is important for
maintaining normal mental and <a href="http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/default.htm">physical activity</a>. In children, having enough thyroid hormone is important for normal mental and physical development.<br />
This medication is also used to treat other types of <a href="http://www.webmd.com/women/guide/understanding-thyroid-problems-basics">thyroid disorders</a> (such as certain types of goiters, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/cancer/tc/thyroid-cancer-topic-overview">thyroid cancer</a>).<br />
This medication should not be used to treat <a href="http://www.webmd.com/infertility-and-reproduction/default.htm">infertility</a> unless it is caused by low thyroid hormone levels.<br />
<b>How to use Synthroid oral</b> Take this medication by mouth as directed by your doctor, usually once daily on an empty <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/picture-of-the-stomach">stomach</a>, 30 minutes to 1 hour before <a href="http://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/most-important-meal">breakfast</a>. Take this medication with a full glass of water unless your doctor directs you otherwise.<br />
Dosage is based on your age, weight, medical condition, laboratory test results, and response to treatment.<br />
Use this medication regularly in order to get the most benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same time each day.<br />
Do
not stop taking this medication without first consulting with your
doctor. Thyroid replacement treatment is usually taken for life.<br />
There are different brands of levothyroxine available. Do not change brands without first consulting your doctor or pharmacist.<br />
Certain medications (<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-4803-cholestyramine+light+oral.aspx">cholestyramine</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-8111-COLESTIPOL+TABLET+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=6728&drugname=colestipol+oral">colestipol</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-19888-colesevelam+oral.aspx">colesevelam</a>, <b>antacids</b>, sucralfate, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-8265-SIMETHICONE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=341&drugname=simethicone+oral">simethicone</a>, <b>iron</b>, sodium polystyrene sulfonate, calcium carbonate, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-17220-orlistat+oral.aspx">orlistat</a>)
can decrease the amount of thyroid hormone that is absorbed by your
body. If you are taking any of these drugs, <b>separate them from this
medication by at least 4 hours</b>.<br />
Symptoms of low thyroid hormone levels include tiredness, muscle aches, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-diseases-constipation">constipation</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/default.htm">dry skin</a>,
weight gain, slow heartbeat, or sensitivity to cold. Tell your doctor
if your condition worsens or persists after several weeks of taking this
medication.<br />
<br />
Tell your doctor immediately if any of these unlikely but serious effects of high thyroid hormone levels occur: increased <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/hyperhidrosis2">sweating</a>, sensitivity to heat, mental/mood changes (such as nervousness, mood swings), tiredness, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-diseases-diarrhea">diarrhea</a>, shaking (tremor), <a href="http://www.webmd.com/migraines-headaches/default.htm">headache</a>, shortness of breath.<br />
Get medical help right away if any of these rare but serious effects of high thyroid hormone levels occur: <a href="http://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/tc/chest-pain-topic-overview">chest pain</a>, fast/pounding/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/guide/what-causes-heart-palpitations">irregular heartbeat</a>, swelling hands/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/picture-of-the-ankle">ankles</a>/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/pain-management/picture-of-the-feet">feet</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/epilepsy/understanding-seizures-basics">seizures</a>.<br />
A very serious <a href="http://www.webmd.com/allergies/guide/allergic-reaction-causes">allergic reaction</a>
to this drug is rare. However, get medical help right away if you
notice any symptoms of a serious allergic reaction, including: <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/tc/rash-age-12-and-older-topic-overview">rash</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/guide/skin-conditions-pruritus">itching</a>/swelling (especially of the face/<a href="http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/picture-of-the-tongue">tongue</a>/throat), severe <a href="http://www.webmd.com/brain/tc/dizziness-lightheadedness-and-vertigo-topic-overview">dizziness</a>, <a href="http://www.webmd.com/lung/breathing-problems-causes-tests-treatments">trouble breathing</a>.<br />
This
is not a complete list of possible side effects. If you notice other
effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.<br />
<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-7033-Synthroid+Oral.aspx?drugid=7033&drugname=Synthroid+Oral&source=0&dmid=149&dmtitle=More+significant&intrtype=FOOD&pagenumber=9">DISCUSS USE OF FIBER WITH DOCTOR.</a><br />
<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-7033-Synthroid+Oral.aspx?drugid=7033&drugname=Synthroid+Oral&source=0&dmid=94&dmtitle=More+significant&intrtype=FOOD&pagenumber=9">DISCUSS USE OF SOY PRODUCTS WITH DOCTOR.</a><br />
<a href="http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-7033-Synthroid+Oral.aspx?drugid=7033&drugname=Synthroid+Oral&source=0&dmid=150&dmtitle=More+significant&intrtype=FOOD&pagenumber=9">DISCUSS COFFEE CONSUMPTION WITH DOCTOR</a></div>
<br />@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-46020089954293434962014-06-21T12:18:00.001-04:002014-06-22T08:29:50.333-04:00Part of another post"Believe it or not - I left the house this morning to meet-up w/ 2 of my girl friends that I haven't seen in 4 yrs.
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Shamefully, one lives maybe an hour away and the other is from the USA.
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But we picked up right where we'd been.
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There was extended talk re: mental health/illness since I am trying to manage with meds."
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*the rest deals w/ sex and is on my other blog*
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Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-42109623921472453102014-06-17T10:01:00.001-04:002014-06-17T10:01:50.138-04:00A bit sadToday was my last day at OW, technically past my last day but I wanted to catch up T on what's been happening and I was pleased to see M as well.
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<br>But they were 2 of my fav ppl there (+ J) and I will miss them.
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<br>I did say I'd share my ODSP app if they'd like and they both have my contact details...
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<br>Isn't it nice to know there are some honestly kind ppl who help people??
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<br>I don't know what to expect from ODSP but I can only hope my worker and/or the ppl I deal w/ are as kind and understanding as M, T and J.
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<br>I will really miss them.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-7476332681679893062014-06-16T07:59:00.000-04:002014-06-16T08:03:45.886-04:00songsI love music and sometimes I feel like songs define me...<br />
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"Pictures of Madness" by the Pleasure Thieves: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nL648uZnpNg">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nL648uZnpNg</a><br />
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"Take Me Away" by the Sleddogs: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDQdXtSoQg4">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDQdXtSoQg4</a><br />
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"Animal Zoo" by Front 242: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI418Jw5kp4">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI418Jw5kp4</a><br />
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"Happiness in Slavery" by Nine Inch Nails: <a href="http://vimeo.com/3556108" target="_blank">http://vimeo.com/3556108</a><br />
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"Wish" also by NIN: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuoFiIFkdAA&feature=kp">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuoFiIFkdAA&feature=kp</a><br />
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"Bury My Lovely" by October Project: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puGEpGzk2hk">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puGEpGzk2hk</a><br />
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"1963" by New Order: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBlxkdPPJ-c">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBlxkdPPJ-c</a><br />
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"Breath of Life" by Erasure: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sW7QpgO0GU">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sW7QpgO0GU</a><br />
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"Homeward" by VNV Nation: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glfH5c_1hYE&feature=kp">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glfH5c_1hYE&feature=kp</a><br />
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"Dead Stars" by Covenant: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPnWOem7jok">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPnWOem7jok</a><br />
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"End of the World" (acoustic) by Apoptygma Berserk: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IexZ7GQHtzM">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IexZ7GQHtzM</a><br />
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"Stigmata" by Ministry: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxaPj19VnRA" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxaPj19VnRA</a><br />
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There are many more but these are the ones that came to mind this morning...<br />
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<br />@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-37880185414505404962014-06-15T23:39:00.001-04:002014-06-15T23:39:18.373-04:00Took Hubs 2.0 out for Father's DayIt was OK...
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<br>Too many people.
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<br>Got really stressed and anxious.
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<br>I couldn't deal.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-56411095192375029502014-06-13T22:53:00.002-04:002014-06-13T22:53:42.161-04:00The ListOK so I have a list of things i don't know how to bring up with my psychiatrist OR I am afraid to - depends on what it is.<br />
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Anyone else feel like this?<br />
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<br />@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-44626611137342038242014-06-12T16:38:00.001-04:002014-06-12T16:38:04.602-04:00Effing up my meds<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-rkgpgNrz5CY/U5oPrR7yIQI/AAAAAAAAAf0/0UA04yTJ8y4/s1600/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FSU1HLTIwMTQwNjEyLTAyMjg2LmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-784603"><img src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-rkgpgNrz5CY/U5oPrR7yIQI/AAAAAAAAAf0/0UA04yTJ8y4/s320/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FSU1HLTIwMTQwNjEyLTAyMjg2LmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-784603" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6024144687784403202" /></a></p>Totally forgot to take my lunch ones yesterday and almost forgot one (of 2 stupid pills!) today!
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<br>I keep waking up just before 6 a.m. And falling asleep my midnight - I am a night owl; I am not used to this shit!
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<br>On a thyroid pill now, if I could stop bruising, stubbing and getting my poor feet stepped on, maybe I'd have left the damn house once this wk!!!!
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<br>Oh and I have a lot of meds in the a.m. So I am supposed to do empty stomach and wait 30 - 60 mins to eat and can't have antacids and a bunch of other things for 4 hrs after.
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<br>Wanna see my morning pills?
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-51616649538790832972014-06-07T17:51:00.001-04:002014-06-07T17:51:28.460-04:00I always feel more down when I am sickBeen sick for days...
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<br>Also depressed.
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<br>Laundry and dishes piling up again.
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<br>I suck.
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-86703272114245248812014-06-05T15:04:00.001-04:002014-06-05T15:04:44.589-04:00Bought jeans todayUsed ones.
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<br>In a size I've never worn before.
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<br>I felt anxious and appalled.
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<br>And yet I still feel uninspired, only dePressed.
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<br>Fuck!
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-15344141721493718512014-06-02T12:12:00.001-04:002014-06-02T12:12:36.212-04:00Cranky, Bitchy, Grr Arrgh!I don't know if this is me or hormones or the start of a down after a high...
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<br>I feel shitty and angry and alone.
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<br>I am still wanting to do work around the house (or really Hubs) to sort through the extraneouS crap.
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<br>I just want to curl up and have a good cry. I"m hoping the addition of the thyroid med will help.
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<br>Oh and my phone is fucked (not ducked auto-correct!)
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<br>*sigh*
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-75104927066412406482014-05-31T19:26:00.001-04:002014-05-31T19:26:28.389-04:00What the hell is wrong than my phone!!!!!!<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FkNvRlnaW88/U4plJJ5mMjI/AAAAAAAAAc4/200-G9l_R2o/s1600/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FSU1HLTIwMTQwNTMxLTAyMjUxLmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-788390"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FkNvRlnaW88/U4plJJ5mMjI/AAAAAAAAAc4/200-G9l_R2o/s320/%253D%253Futf-8%253FB%253FSU1HLTIwMTQwNTMxLTAyMjUxLmpwZw%253D%253D%253F%253D-788390" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_6019735059884814898" /></a></p>Here's the meds pic
<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-84878204420120246852014-05-31T19:25:00.001-04:002014-05-31T19:25:14.125-04:00The list of wk 1Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-88800243629741725792014-05-31T19:24:00.001-04:002014-05-31T19:24:10.156-04:00New pills in a wkPlus I am depressed...
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<br>This sucks!
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<br>Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-65699925163366554852014-05-30T11:02:00.000-04:002014-05-30T11:02:10.882-04:00I got approved for ODSP in 16 business days.<br />
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I really want to freak on the doctors who refused to help me!<br />
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But I won't.<br />
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I also will be starting a thyroid pill in my next set of pills.<br />
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<br />@FlabbergastedMahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16160961323860276113noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6153329681853518354.post-14680309919951727042014-05-27T13:30:00.000-04:002014-06-13T22:52:18.519-04:00excerpt from may 27th entry of hand-written journal<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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