I think I feel a bit better today

Yesterday we had one of our friends over, which was nice because she gets the way that MOH and I are and her youngest daughter gets along with our kids (they haven't met her older dau. yet).

Though because Friday was an out-of-the-house-all-day-day for me, Sat was a barely-move-to-try-and-recover-day-day which my friend hadn't seen before and it also ended up being a bit of an emotional day to.

My energy is a bit better today again, so it's back to getting some crap done around the house.  Which appears to be pissing MOH and the older kids off.  It's only 11:16 a.m. and there has already been a few temper tantrums from my son and a couple of emotional tantrums from our daughter.

And MOH and I have locked horns a few times too.

Fun, fun, fun - even though not everyone is diagnosed I kind of wanna call us the ADHD house or House of ADHD.

Even if not everyone turns out to be BPD, I think there's a 90% chance of everyone having ADD/ADHD.

So to aid the older kids, despite MOH losing his cool over it, I wrote the kids the following STEP #1 list:

- GET GARBAGE BAG
- Throw out any garbage like:  broken toys, loose puzzle pieces, clothing tags, old snacks or treats, food garbage, food wrappers, gift bags, empty toy packaging, really dirty clothing that you can tell won't fit (like underwear)

Then come get another garbage bag when the first one is full and repeat

But yet when it comes to what I have to work on at this moment, I am writing a blog post instead and feeling overwhelmed just thinking about it.

When MOH went to group on Thursday, I went to work on the area that is HIS task area because he hadn't done anything all this week (other than me forcing him to help me with the living room on Sunday afternoon) and I was getting fed up.

I still find it WAY easier working on other people's "stuff" than on my own.  There is some more um... I guess,  precise or nit-picky organization I want/need/would like to do in the living room but I haven't found exactly what I have in my mind to use for that yet.

And then there is the BIG job of tackling the very small but disastrous so-called dining room or what I like to call the table-that-collects-everything and I feel like I don't know where to start. 

Because when it comes to MY areas/jobs - I'm at a loss.  What kind of sense does that make???

None.

I know, right?

Healer, heal thyself - blah bloody blah.

Man of the House is In The House

I'm kind of at a loss right now about what to post. I have some concerns about some medical tests that I have to have done, I have concerns about my youngest having autism, or being bi-polar, or OCD, or ADD, or any combination of those. And I'm concerned about what my own diagnosis is going to be when I go to my Pysch appointment on Monday. On one hand it will be a relief to finally get a professional's opinion to finally put a "label" on this "thing" that has been plaguing me for years. But then comes the realization that I could be more fucked up than I originally thought. So, lots of thoughts in my head right now that I need to sort through.

MOH

What do you think about online screening quizzes?

So, tonight I had MOH do 2 screening quizzes in preparation for his upcoming psychiatric assessment.

The screening quizzes were from http://psychcentral.com 

One was for Adult ADD and this was the scoring key:
S C O R I N G   K E Y

If you scored...	You may have...
70 & up 50 - 69 35 - 49 25 - 34 0 - 24	Adult ADHD Moderate ADHD Mild ADHD Borderline ADHD No ADHD likely

He did it without any input from me and scored over 70.

The other one was a bipolar screening test and he also did that one without my input and the scoring key was:
S C O R I N G   K E Y

If you scored...	You may have...
51 & up	Bipolar disorder - Serious symptoms
36 - 50	Bipolar disorder - Moderate to severe symptoms
25 - 35	Bipolar disorder likely
16 - 24	Either bipolar disorder II or depressive disorder
10 - 15	Possible depressive disorder
0 - 9	No disorder likely

On that one he scored himself in the moderate to severe symptoms.  I am curious to see what he would score if I did it on my perceptions of his behaviour?

Should I?

Why do I even ask?

That reminds me of something and I'm not quite sure what the difference in our answers says about us but MOH and I were watching Dallas the other week (we haven't seen this week's yet so NO SPOILERS please).  Anyway, Bobby was offered information on his wife by her ex-husband and, although he was curious, he told her that he hoped someday she'd tell her himself and he threw the unopened envelope into the fireplace.

MOH asked me if we were in that situation, would I read what was in the envelope.  I answered instantly that yes, I would want to know and that it would drive me crazy to know that someone else knew something about him/our family that I didn't know because I always want to know the information.  Always.

And I was shocked, well, actually, surprise surprise, FLABBERGASTED when MOH told me that he wouldn't take the hypothetical envelope and would not actually want to know.

So, I do wonder what that says about us?

OK so I did the bipolar quiz on him and I scored him in the same range though 4 points higher than he scored himself.

On the ADHD one I scored him as how he comes across to me and well he scored 22 point higher than he did when he scored himself.  LOL!

MOH is not particularly impressed with me at this moment...

*shrug*