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Monday, 21 July 2014

Moody

I don't really have anything to say other than H dragging me out for some garage sale perusing.

I feel crappy and Hubs is gone till tmw.

:(


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Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Haven't been writing

I am very bored and boring so I haven't been writing.

It's been a busy wk so I am exhausted!!!

I'm moody and semi-down most days but I slap on a happy face the best I can because Hubs is down too.

Had Son's bday, went to the beach and saw an old friend.

All good things but I feel like I have no energy left.


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Sunday, 6 July 2014

Tired

I have been up and down this wk. Got my period - first one since May.

Haven't been taking many actual photos or working on genealogy either.

Went out yesterday w/ a good friend - met up w/ some other friends & I was even convinced to stay out even later and some of it was good and some wasn't as much.

Overall, I feel sort of strange it's like while I am texting this - it's one of those out-of-body experiences where I am seeing myself from above.

I feel so disconnected...


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Thursday, 3 July 2014

Hmmn...

Had ODSP meeting today - came home and slept for HOURS - my case worker was nice and explained things thoroughly though I can't say I retained much of it.

Thank God there were handouts!

Awoke feeling moody.


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Wednesday, 2 July 2014

*sigh* Hubs 2.0 is depressed

This is so hard to deal w/ because it pulls me down too. It's so easy to be sucked into the whirlpool.
I am swimming against the current but I don't want to drown!

I *know* I should be more supportive and I tend to think I am until I end up losing my shit w/ him.

Go to a DR, a counselling place - just do SOMETHING!!!!

I've been asking for MONTHS!


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Saturday, 28 June 2014

Angry

I've been kind of angry today.

Everything is like striking a match to a wick.

I hate this.


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Wednesday, 25 June 2014

Fuck

So there is this thing called a disability tax credit aka the T-2201.

You need a medical dr or psychologist to fill it out and without one, in Ontario, you can NOT set up an RDSP for yourself.

I don't have either.

My psychiatrist did my cpp-d application and my odsp application.

So I need some else to do the last thing.

According to CIBC - Ontario is the only province that does it that way.

Grr Arrgh!

I say this time and time again - why is it that ppl with mental health issues need to jump through hoops when we have a lessened capacity/tolerance for it all?!?!???


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Sunday, 22 June 2014

Contemplating my pills

Clonazepam 0.5 mg - 6x per day = 3 mg
Lamictal 100 mg - 5x per day = 500 mg
Teva-Propranlol 10 mg - 2x per day = 20 mg
Abilify 30 mg - 1x per day = 30 mg
Synthroid 25 mcg - 2x per day = 50 mcg

MCG is micrograms so that amount won't even help with weight loss :( damn it!

But my question is - is that a LOT of medication to be on or not?

Next appt I am going to ask if the Clonazepam was actually "as needed" with the max being "as prescribed" because I think he said that to me but I can't recall.

fr: http://www.webmd.boots.com/mental-health/bipolar-disorder-clonazepam-to-treat-mania

Does it work?

Probably. If you have bipolar disorder, taking clonazepam can help calm down some of your symptoms if you are having a bout of mania. But it can have side effects, especially if you take it for more than four weeks.

What is it?

Clonazepam  [snip] can also be used to treat anxiety and mania.
Clonazepam can be addictive if you take it for too long. But it starts to work quickly.


How does it work?

Benzodiazepine drugs such as clonazepam dampen down activity in your brain. This means they have a calming effect. They help you feel less anxious and help you get to sleep.

Can it be harmful?

Yes. These are some of side effects you are most likely to get. [78]
  • Feeling sleepy. This is the most common side effect of benzodiazepines. You shouldn't drive or operate machinery while taking clonazepam.
  • Having problems with your memory. Benzodiazepines can make it hard for you to remember things.
  • Having dizzy spells.
Doctors won't give you benzodiazepine drugs such as clonazepam for more than a few weeks. This is because you can become dependent on them. When you become dependent on a drug, you feel a strong need to keep taking it. And you can't stop taking it without getting withdrawal symptoms. For example, you may feel very upset or irritated, be unable to sleep, and lose your appetite. So doctors don't usually give people benzodiazepine drugs for longer than a few weeks.


 fr: http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-7217-LAMOTRIGINE+-+ORAL.aspx?drugid=8486&drugname=Lamictal+Oral&source=0

Lamictal oral Warnings
Rarely, serious (sometimes fatal) skin rashes have occurred while taking this medication. These rashes are more common in children under 16 than in adults. Rashes may be more likely if you start at too high a dose, if you increase your dose too quickly, or if you take this medication with certain other anti-seizure medications (valproic acid, divalproex). These rashes may occur anytime during use, but most serious rashes have occurred within 2 to 8 weeks of starting lamotrigine.
Get medical help right away if you develop any type of skin rash while taking this medication, or if you have other signs of a serious allergic reaction such as hives, fever, swollen lymph glands, painful sores in the mouth or around the eyes, or swelling of the lips or tongue. Your doctor will tell you if you should stop taking lamotrigine. Even after you stop taking this medication, it is still possible for the rash to become life-threatening or cause permanent scars or other problems.


Lamotrigine is used alone or with other medications to prevent and control seizures. It may also be used to help prevent the extreme mood swings of bipolar disorder in adults.
Lamotrigine is known as an anticonvulsant or antiepileptic drug. It is thought to work by restoring the balance of certain natural substances in the brain.
How to use Lamictal oral Read the Medication Guide and, if available, the Patient Information Leaflet provided by your pharmacist before you start taking lamotrigine and each time you get a refill. If you have any questions, ask your doctor or pharmacist.
Take this medication by mouth with or without food as directed by your doctor. Swallow the tablets whole since chewing them may leave a bitter taste.
Dosage is based on your medical condition, response to treatment, and use of certain interacting drugs. (See also Drug Interactions section.) For children, the dosage is also based on weight.
It is very important to follow your doctor's dosing instructions exactly. The dose must be increased slowly. It may take several weeks or months to reach the best dose for you and to get the full benefit from this medication. Take this medication regularly in order to get the most benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same time(s) each day.
Do not stop taking this medication without consulting your doctor. Some conditions may become worse when the drug is suddenly stopped. Your dose may need to be gradually decreased. Also, if you have stopped taking this medication, do not restart lamotrigine without consulting your doctor.
Tell your doctor if your condition does not improve or if it worsens.

Lamictal oral is used to treat the following:
Bipolar Disorder in Remission, Epilepsy of the Lennox Gastaut Syndrome, Simple Partial Seizures, Convulsive Seizures, Epileptic Seizure, Fit
Lamictal oral may also be used to treat:
Bipolar Depression, Rapid Cycle Manic-Depression, Neuropathic Pain


Before using this medication, tell your doctor or pharmacist your medical history, especially of: kidney disease, liver disease.
This drug may make you dizzy or drowsy or cause blurred vision. Do not drive, use machinery, or do any activity that requires alertness or clear vision until you are sure you can perform such activities safely. Limit alcoholic beverages.
Before having surgery, tell your doctor or dentist about all the products you use (including prescription drugs, nonprescription drugs, and herbal products).
Older adults may be more sensitive to the side effects of this drug, especially dizziness, loss of coordination, or fainting. These side effects can increase the risk of falling.


Drug interactions may change how your medications work or increase your risk for serious side effects. This document does not contain all possible drug interactions. Keep a list of all the products you use (including prescription/nonprescription drugs and herbal products) and share it with your doctor and pharmacist. Do not start, stop, or change the dosage of any medicines without your doctor's approval.
Other medications can affect the removal of lamotrigine from your body, which may affect how lamotrigine works. Examples include hormonal birth control (such as pills, patches), estrogens, other medications to treat seizures (such as carbamazepine, phenobarbital, phenytoin, primidone, valproic acid), and rifampin, among others. Your doctor may need to adjust your dose of lamotrigine if you are on these medications.
This medication may decrease the effectiveness of hormonal birth control products (such as pills, patch, ring). This effect can result in pregnancy. Ask your doctor or pharmacist for details. Discuss whether you should use additional reliable birth control methods while using this medication. Also tell your doctor if you have any new spotting or breakthrough bleeding, because these may be signs that your birth control is not working well.
Tell your doctor or pharmacist if you are taking other products that cause drowsiness including alcohol, antihistamines (such as cetirizine, diphenhydramine), drugs for sleep or anxiety (such as alprazolam, diazepam, zolpidem), muscle relaxants, and narcotic pain relievers (such as codeine).
Check the labels on all your medicines (such as allergy or cough-and-cold products) because they may contain ingredients that cause drowsiness. Ask your pharmacist about using those products safely.

NOTES:
Do not share this medication with others.
Laboratory and/or medical tests (such as liver and kidney function tests, complete blood count) may be performed periodically to monitor your progress or check for side effects. Consult your doctor for more details.
There are different types of this medication available. Some do not have the same effects. There are also some medications that sound the same as this product. Make sure you have the right product before taking it.

fr: http://chealth.canoe.ca/drug_info_details.asp?brand_name_id=4105

How does Teva-Propranolol work? What will it do for me?

Propranolol belongs to the class of medications called beta-blockers. It is used to treat high blood pressure. It is also used to prevent angina (chest pain), to reduce the risk of more heart problems after a heart attack (myocardial infarction), to manage certain heart conditions, and to treat certain types of abnormal heart rhythms. Propranolol works by relaxing blood vessels and reducing the demands on the heart.
Propranolol is also used for the prevention of migraines and the treatment of essential tremor.
Your doctor may have suggested this medication for conditions other than those listed in these drug information articles. As well, some forms of this medication may not be used for all of the conditions discussed here. If you have not discussed this with your doctor or are not sure why you are taking this medication, speak to your doctor. Do not stop taking this medication without consulting your doctor.
Do not give this medication to anyone else, even if they have the same symptoms as you do. It can be harmful for people to take this medication if their doctor has not prescribed it.

How should I use Teva-Propranolol?

The recommended adult dose of propranolol varies widely according to the condition being treated and circumstances of the person taking the medication. Propranolol may be taken with or without food. Do not stop taking this medication suddenly unless you have talked with your doctor first.
Many things can affect the dose of medication that a person needs, such as body weight, other medical conditions, and other medications. If your doctor has recommended a dose different from the ones given here,do not change the way that you are taking the medication without consulting your doctor.
It is important to take this medication exactly as prescribed by your doctor. If you miss a dose, take it as soon as possible and continue with your regular schedule. If it is almost time for your next dose, skip the missed dose and continue with your regular dosing schedule. Do not take a double dose to make up for a missed one. If you are not sure what to do after missing a dose, contact your doctor or pharmacist for advice.
This medication is available under multiple brand names and/or in several different forms. Any specific brand name of this medication may not be available in all of the forms listed here. The forms available for the specific brand you have searched are listed under "What form(s) does this medication come in?"
Do not dispose of medications in wastewater (e.g. down the sink or in the toilet) or in household garbage. Ask your pharmacist how to dispose of medications that are no longer needed or have expired.

Who should NOT take Teva-Propranolol?

Propranolol should not be taken by anyone who:
  • is allergic to propranolol or to any of the ingredients of the medication
  • is in cardiogenic shock
  • has a severely slow heart rate
  • has allergic rhinitis during the pollen season
  • has asthma or severe chronic obstructive respiratory diseases (e.g., emphysema, chronic bronchitis)
  • has overt heart failure
  • has right ventricular failure secondary to pulmonary hypertension (excessive blood pressure in the lungs)
  • has serious heart block (second- and third-degree AV block)
  • has severe circulatory disorders

    What side effects are possible with Teva-Propranolol?

    Many medications can cause side effects. A side effect is an unwanted response to a medication when it is taken in normal doses. Side effects can be mild or severe, temporary or permanent. The side effects listed below are not experienced by everyone who takes this medication. If you are concerned about side effects, discuss the risks and benefits of this medication with your doctor.
    The following side effects have been reported by at least 1% of people taking this medication. Many of these side effects can be managed, and some may go away on their own over time.
    Contact your doctor if you experience these side effects and they are severe or bothersome. Your pharmacist may be able to advise you on managing side effects.
  • dizziness or lightheadedness
  • drowsiness (slight)
  • hives
  • itching of skin
  • skin rash
  • unusual tiredness or weakness
Although most of these side effects listed below don't happen very often, they could lead to serious problems if you do not check with your doctor or seek medical attention.
Check with your doctor as soon as possible if any of the following side effects occur:
  • back or joint pain
  • breathing difficulty or wheezing
  • chest pain
  • cold hands and feet
  • confusion
  • depression
  • dizziness upon arising (orthostatic hypotension)
  • fever and sore throat
  • hallucinations
  • irregular heartbeat
  • red, scaling, or crusted skin
  • shortness of breath
  • slow heartbeat (especially less than 50 beats per minute)
  • skin rash
  • swelling of ankles, feet, or lower legs
  • unusual bleeding or bruising
Some people may experience side effects other than those listed. Check with your doctor if you notice any symptom that worries you while you are taking this medication.


What other drugs could interact with Teva-Propranolol?

There may be an interaction between propranolol and any of the following:
  • amiodarone
  • antiarrhythmic medications
  • antidiabetes medications (e.g., insulin)
  • asthma medications (e.g., salbutamol, salmeterol)
  • calcium channel blockers (e.g., nifedipine, verapamil)
  • chlorpromazine
  • cimetidine
  • clonidine
  • digoxin
  • diltiazem
  • disopyramide
  • dong quai
  • epinephrine
  • ergot alkaloids (e.g., dihydroergotamine, methysergide)
  • fentanyl
  • haloperidol
  • hydralazine
  • lidocaine
  • medications that reduce blood pressure
  • mefloquine
  • methimazole
  • methyldopa
  • nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs; e.g., ibuprofen, naproxen)
  • prazosin
  • propafenone
  • quinidine
  • ranitidine
  • selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors(SSRIs; e.g., citalopram, fluoxetine, fluvoxamine paroxetine, sertraline)
  • St. John's wort
  • theophyllines (e.g., theophylline, aminophylline, oxtriphylline)
  • thioridazine
  • verapamil
  • warfarin

 fr:  http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-64439-Abilify+Oral.aspx?drugid=64439

There may be a slightly increased risk of serious, possibly fatal side effects (such as stroke, heart failure, fast/irregular heartbeat, pneumonia) when this medication is used by older adults with dementia. This medication is not approved for the treatment of dementia-related behavior problems. Discuss the risks and benefits of this medication, as well as other effective and possibly safer treatments for dementia-related behavior problems, with the doctor.

Aripiprazole is used to treat certain mental/mood disorders (such as bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and irritability associated with autistic disorder). It may also be used in combination with other medication to treat depression. Aripiprazole is known as an antipsychotic drug (atypical type). It works by helping to restore the balance of certain natural chemicals in the brain (neurotransmitters).
This medication can decrease hallucinations and improve your concentration. It helps you to think more clearly and positively about yourself, feel less nervous, and take a more active part in everyday life. Aripiprazole can treat severe mood swings and decrease how often mood swings occur.

Side effects:

Dizziness, lightheadedness, drowsiness, nausea, vomiting, tiredness, excess saliva/drooling, blurred vision, weight gain, constipation, headache, and trouble sleeping may occur. If any of these effects persist or worsen, tell your doctor or pharmacist promptly.
To reduce the risk of dizziness and lightheadedness, get up slowly when rising from a sitting or lying position.
Remember that your doctor has prescribed this medication because he or she has judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects. Many people using this medication do not have serious side effects.
Tell your doctor right away if you have any serious side effects, including: fainting, mental/mood changes (such as increased anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts), trouble swallowing, restlessness (especially in the legs), shaking (tremor), muscle spasm, mask-like expression of the face, seizures, signs of infection (such as fever, persistent sore throat).

This drug may make you dizzy or drowsy or cause blurred vision. Do not drive, use machinery, or do any activity that requires alertness or clear vision until you are sure you can perform such activities safely. Avoid alcoholic beverages.
This medication can make you more likely to get heat stroke, a very serious condition. Avoid activities that might cause you to overheat (such as doing strenuous work/exercise in hot weather, using hot tubs). When the weather is hot, drink plenty of fluids and dress lightly. If you become overheated, promptly seek cooler shelter and stop exercising.

fr:  http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-7033-Synthroid+Oral.aspx?drugid=7033&drugname=Synthroid+Oral&source=0

Synthroid oral is used to treat the following:
Additional Treatment for Thyroid Cancer, Enlarged Thyroid Gland, Underactive Thyroid, A Progressive Disease of the Thyroid Gland
Common Brand Name(s): Levothroid, Levoxyl, Synthroid, Unithroid

 This medication should not be used for weight loss. Normal doses of this medication will not work for weight loss, and large doses of this medication may cause serious, possibly fatal side effects, especially when taken with diet pills.


Levothyroxine is used to treat an underactive thyroid (hypothyroidism). It replaces or provides more thyroid hormone, which is normally produced by the thyroid gland. Low thyroid hormone levels can occur naturally or when the thyroid gland is injured by radiation/medications or removed by surgery. Having enough thyroid hormone is important for maintaining normal mental and physical activity. In children, having enough thyroid hormone is important for normal mental and physical development.
This medication is also used to treat other types of thyroid disorders (such as certain types of goiters, thyroid cancer).
This medication should not be used to treat infertility unless it is caused by low thyroid hormone levels.
How to use Synthroid oral Take this medication by mouth as directed by your doctor, usually once daily on an empty stomach, 30 minutes to 1 hour before breakfast. Take this medication with a full glass of water unless your doctor directs you otherwise.
Dosage is based on your age, weight, medical condition, laboratory test results, and response to treatment.
Use this medication regularly in order to get the most benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same time each day.
Do not stop taking this medication without first consulting with your doctor. Thyroid replacement treatment is usually taken for life.
There are different brands of levothyroxine available. Do not change brands without first consulting your doctor or pharmacist.
Certain medications (cholestyramine, colestipol, colesevelam, antacids, sucralfate, simethicone, iron, sodium polystyrene sulfonate, calcium carbonate, orlistat) can decrease the amount of thyroid hormone that is absorbed by your body. If you are taking any of these drugs, separate them from this medication by at least 4 hours.
Symptoms of low thyroid hormone levels include tiredness, muscle aches, constipation, dry skin, weight gain, slow heartbeat, or sensitivity to cold. Tell your doctor if your condition worsens or persists after several weeks of taking this medication.

Tell your doctor immediately if any of these unlikely but serious effects of high thyroid hormone levels occur: increased sweating, sensitivity to heat, mental/mood changes (such as nervousness, mood swings), tiredness, diarrhea, shaking (tremor), headache, shortness of breath.
Get medical help right away if any of these rare but serious effects of high thyroid hormone levels occur: chest pain, fast/pounding/irregular heartbeat, swelling hands/ankles/feet, seizures.
A very serious allergic reaction to this drug is rare. However, get medical help right away if you notice any symptoms of a serious allergic reaction, including: rash, itching/swelling (especially of the face/tongue/throat), severe dizziness, trouble breathing.
This is not a complete list of possible side effects. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.
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