OK so I've been quite down for quite awhile.
I've hardly been talking to some of my friends because I don't want to bring them down and I usually socialize with them in public and I haven't felt up to being out.
That being said, one of them messaged me last night (when I stayed home instead of going out) and mentioned that a few wks ago 3 of them had gone out together - but they never even asked me if I was up to going out.
So even though I'm down and have been hibernating - my feelings are hurt.
I know it doesn't make any sense but it's how I feel.
Though it's given me something else to obsess about instead of thinking about if there is any month where it would be "acceptable" to commit suicide if I ever decide to kill myself.
Can't pick the months my kids' birthdays are in, or my siblings', or my parents' or Hubs or my in-laws.
Can't do May because of Mothers Day.
So that means March, April, May, June, July, August, Sept, Oct, Nov & Dec are out.
That leaves Jan - nope that my anniversary with Hubs.
So Feb is the only month I could choose.
But Feb has Family Day & Valentine's Day.
So that's the drawback of a large family & multiple parents.
Guess that means I really cannot ever kill myself.
Good to know that logic dictates there is no acceptable month for this.
When things get really bad, I'll remind myself about that one.
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