Have appt #2 with MSW at OW.
I've been plagued with late night paranoia and fears. I even erased what I was writing because I felt like my heart was being squeezed.
I used to think if I wrote out or thought out my fears and worst-case scenarios - it would prepare me for the worst but now I fear it would release things into the world I do not want.
Giving false intentions to the Universe.
Giving power to things that would destroy me.
So that's all I am going to write about that.
It's too hard to explain even if I could.
Not sure what I am going to talk about at my appt tmw.
I had considered doing a short-form cheat sheet of sorts for MSW re: my issues & external factors that exacerbate them.
But I didn't.
I guess I'll wing it depending how I feel.
Sometimes I wish there was a "how-to" participate in therapy.
If this is a test, I'm probably failing.
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