- I forgot to take my melatonin
- I'm still hungry
- I need another (drink, hug, kiss, cuddle)
- I can't sleep
Then it turns into a complete refusal to go or to stay in his bed/room.
I say it nicely.
I say it firmly.
I remind him of the consequences.
It just deteriorates. And my anxiety and stress just build.
I remind him about doing what we ask the first time to help me stay healthy.
It makes no difference.
MOH and I stop engaging with him.
His response is to get louder, knock things over, throw things, and to yell that he won't do what we want because we are making him angry.
When he finally does go to bed, I just want to bawl my eyes out.
This happened last night too.
I have less and less energy to cope with this.
Sometimes I feel like one of these days after one of his tantrums, when I get a moment to catch my breath to cry, or to bury my face in my pillow and scream that I'll just cease to exist.
EDITED TO ADD:
According to the online tracking site I use... it could be the fact that I am PMSing.
The site thinks my period should have been here on the 26th. But my period is not always regular.
Here's the proof (the following is the number of days between cycles):
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